update on last post

i met God in my car this morning, face to face. i sang His praises, prayed and rejoiced in the fact that i truly am worthy! wow, it was amazing and my heart was overflowing!

worthy or not worthy

as i sat in church today, i kept thinking how unworthy i feel to be face to face with God. then melissa made a comment that struck the heart of it. my past relationships, most of them for the last 50 yrs, i have felt unworthy of it all. everything i did wasn't quite up to the standards of others. i always fell short. i would clean the kitchen growing up, but would always forget to clean the sink out when i was finished. i never seemed to complete things. i go grocery shopping but will forget the toilet paper. (that's a whole other story.) i would start out strong and always end with a weak finish. even now, after completing a job at work, the phone will ring and instantly i think "what did i do wrong this time". growing up, married life, even the kids sometimes when they were young....i never felt i was good enough. i was never told i was good enough, until now. i am worthy of His love and affection. for no other reason than He made me. i am here to glorify Him and Him alone. i don't need to work for His approval, His grace, or His love. it is odd that we let living life, the life He gave us, take us away from Him. distractions, as someone put it this morning, take us everywhere but where we really need to be; face to face with our Father, our King, our Abba, our Dad. being held in His loving arms, talking, worshipping, praising, and loving Him. i don't know why that seems to be so hard to do.
Father, please remind me minute by minute that i am your child and worthy of it all. when i go out into the world each day, may all i do, be done for your glory.
holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty! and i, am worthy of His love!