my mornings

                                                                    edgar the egret

 every morning i come out back to water my plants and to meditate, pray and see all that i am so blessed with. i pray that i may never become content with everything i have. that each new day will bring a sense of joy and gratitude. listening to the birds with a gentle wind this cool morning, teasing of fall. serenity and peace fill my mind and soul. i've been sober now for almost 6 years, but i know that today is all i have. today i choose love. loved by God, family and friends i am most blessed. 

my home!

 love, life on the lake and my most precious sobriety

this is our home! it is where i find peace and serenity. 

this is where i find love and acceptance.

this is where i find the beauty in nature i have never noticed before.

my backyard 

my side yard 

where the love of my life catches dinner

the last year has been such a growth period for me. to find love for the second time at such an older age is the dream i never thought to have. the past almost 6 years has been a period of growth for me. i never had too much trouble in quitting drinking for a small period of time. when i did drink, i made sure i was going to get blackout drunk. i needed to escape physical, emotional and mental pain. drinking to oblivion was the answer. november 2017, my parents and sister had a come to Jesus meeting with me. it was the first time i didn't say" ya but" and said "you're right" instead. i knew they were right. when i got home after that trip, i decided to go to an aa meeting. the first person who greeted me is now my husband. i went to meetings, i worked the steps sometimes painfully. i listed all my resentments, fears and so much more. they i gave them all to God. when i told my sponsor my story, it was like the previous 50+ years was lifted from my being. only leaving a new purpose, to live life on life's terms. 

today my husband and i are living our best lives. when we got out of our own way to happiness, we discovered life was so much more. together over the las year we have made a home in a rented house on a cattle farm on the river. life is good. 

serenity

I love my life! Finding new love when I am older is something I never thought would happen to me. To live here on this land is just an added gift. Don’t ever give up hope, dreams and desire. One day when the door opens have the courage to take a chance on something different. Stop standing in the way of your ever after happiness! Right now I think I’ll go sit in my and watch Rick fish!

it’s been a minute

 i’ve changed the name of the blog, because i have changed! i am in love, living on a lake in the middle of a cattle farm, 5 years sober, trying to live everyday with god in charge. 

with days that end like this, i know i’m not in charge. I’ll be talking about my feelings, my new set of winged and four legged friends, insights, love and maybe throw some cookies in for old times.