this is where i find love and acceptance.
this is where i find the beauty in nature i have never noticed before.
my side yard
where the love of my life catches dinner
the last year has been such a growth period for me. to find love for the second time at such an older age is the dream i never thought to have. the past almost 6 years has been a period of growth for me. i never had too much trouble in quitting drinking for a small period of time. when i did drink, i made sure i was going to get blackout drunk. i needed to escape physical, emotional and mental pain. drinking to oblivion was the answer. november 2017, my parents and sister had a come to Jesus meeting with me. it was the first time i didn't say" ya but" and said "you're right" instead. i knew they were right. when i got home after that trip, i decided to go to an aa meeting. the first person who greeted me is now my husband. i went to meetings, i worked the steps sometimes painfully. i listed all my resentments, fears and so much more. they i gave them all to God. when i told my sponsor my story, it was like the previous 50+ years was lifted from my being. only leaving a new purpose, to live life on life's terms.
today my husband and i are living our best lives. when we got out of our own way to happiness, we discovered life was so much more. together over the las year we have made a home in a rented house on a cattle farm on the river. life is good.
