look at them! more joy than i can handle, right? then why am i so melancholy? this time of year is my favorite time of year. baking with my favorite girls included my mom this year. mom and dad came out to meet elliott for the first time.
i have begun that season in life that every middle aged women dread. mood swings, night sweats and lots of crying for no reason. i really resent eve right now, that apple could not have tasted that good! because of my breast cancer, i cannot take anything for this problem. the thing i need to do the most is surround myself with those i love and who will love me in spite of my moods. talk about a pity party! i beat cancer, i have been blessed with wonderful kids, their amazing spouses, and three adorable grandkids. so why do i feel lost?
i quit medifast earlier this summer, i could no longer afford it. i was embarrassed and ashamed so i didn't continue the counseling offered to me. i did gain back ten pounds which only made me feel worthless. after an intervention, and a gift of 4 more months at medifast, i plan on reaching my goal for weight loss and for establishing more friendships. for those of you reading this, please pray for me. pray that i will jump out of my box again and reach out to others, that i will accept friendship when offered to me, instead of climbing back into the hole that is my safe place right now!
god has already healed my body and soul, i need to continue to let him do his work in me!
