quarantine- day 9

i’d like to tell you i was handling this with grace and positivity. i can only tell you that i’m trying. i have slept a lot of the time away. now realizing this may go on for a couple or more months, i’ve got to change direction. reality caught up with me when my plans for baking and dropping off the cookies for my meetings had halted me and my ambitions. the meetings had been suspended until further notice. what would i do with no one to bake cookies for? no one to help out with making coffee for? cooking and making jam at jessica’s wouldn’t be happening?

i must have said the serenity prayer a thousand times during the past week. my pain level had skyrocketed without exercise, but i have been too depressed and too lazy to get my ass outside and do anything. i miss misty, jeremy and elliott.  did make apricot jam one day and have enough supplements to make a couple more batches. i am bored. i am a little fearful. i am restless. i am anxious. but i am so

grateful!

grateful 

for my family that loves me enough to keep me from leaving the house

for food to eat

for my sobriety

for coffee! oh my goodness, what would i do without coffee every day all day! i even had to order decaf to keep the caffeine lower.

for zoom and the countless aa meetings i can attend with my home group

for church service online

for the wonderful close friends i now have from the rooms that i can keep in touch with

for the huge stash of yarn in my closet

for being able to watch my son and family have a ton of family time with laughter and song

for running out of frosting in a tub

all of these things and so much more to be grateful for