i was up early this morning...well i am up early every morning, but this morning i went outside to have my first cup of coffee and my quiet time. the sky was filled with so many stars it looked like god had spilled diamonds onto a bed of dark blue velvet (can't you close your eyes and see it?). i could almost touch them and feel them in my hands. a slight breeze hit my face and i knew i wasn't alone. not being able to put into words the weight upon my heart, i just closed my eyes and was still. no, i didn't have some huge revelation, or hear his voice from heaven, but i felt his breath on my face and knew he was close.
the paragraph above was actually the end of a post about my melancholy heart and how life happens. about my wants and needs, my haves and have nots. but after this mornings awakening, i deleted it. everyone has those times when they don't know what to do or what happens next, in that, i am no different. after a summer of love and joy i was quietly reminded of who it is i serve. so instead of complaining, i will anxiously await the quiet morning of each new day, the stars and his breath in the wind.
"he determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name" psalms 147
again...he determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name...and this morning he was sitting next to me out on my deck as i was quiet. the words that didn't come because i didn't know them, he understood, because he knows my heart. he knows it so much more than as he knows the name of the stars. i realized this morning, that even when i don't have the words, he still hears me in my quiet time. so when i have my doubts and troubles, and when i have joy unspeakable, i will quiet my heart and mind and know that he hears and understands me in my stillness.
i couldn't post again without sharing pictures of my trio of joy!
princess caroline, lil' man, and lil' dude!
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