i wrote a couple of weeks ago about my father having esophageal cancer. i have heard of it before but didn't know it was #8 among cancers in this country. dad had already had a test about 3 months ago and the cancer wasn't there, so they found it early, which is good. we were all hoping for a quick fix, surgery, and poof it would be gone. unfortunately that won't be the case. after upcoming tests - pet scan, cardio check up, kidney function test, etc...if no cancer detected anywhere else he will have 85% of his esophagus, 30% of his stomach removed in a 6/8 hour surgery. 10-14 days in the hospital and 8 weeks recovery period. i am not even thinking about if there is more cancer, treating with chemo, radiation and then the surgery. it was so much easier when i had cancer. misty told me that it was my job to stay alive and their job was to make sure i was taken care of. my dad and i now have something in common that no one else in the family can share in. we have both seen cancer from different views. as soon as we find out when the surgery is we (misty, sasha, bobbie and caroline and i) will leave for california.
my mind has been in 4th gear for days now. random thoughts, fears, worry, what ifs, and what nows. but i keep going back to what cancer did for me, it allowed me another avenue to glorify the lord. what? did i just say that? how can something like cancer glorify god? the beauty of being human is the need to fall face down in order to experience gods grace. the beauty of his grace is how quickly we see his mercy. then the heavens open up and he sends his spirit upon us, his covenant with us. all of this is given to us just because we asked. i know many prayers are being said for dad, and god is listening carefully to each one. he is glorified in my cry for help and for each prayer said. we are here to glorify god. to be in an active relationship with him. cancer, prayers, for his glory. i know i am rambling on, another thing i do to keep from thinking too much. my dad and i don't always agree on things, sometimes we are on opposite ends, but on this, bringing edification and glory to our god, i know we are on the same page. see you soon dad
Yes! And I say again, yes! We are praying for you all, Ms. Kim, and He is indeed glorified as you lean into Him for sustenance through the process. He will be glorified, and He is pleased in your desire to offer it freely.
ReplyDeleteMy family and I are praying, Ms. Kim, and we love you dearly.
Grace to you, and peace...
Ms. Kim, I have this picture in my head of you standing on the deck at Merri's beach house. You were looking out over the ocean as the sun was going down. You were so peaceful. I could not see your face but I was overcome by the spirit as I watched you looking out over the ocean. I am not sure what you were thinking but everytime I pray for you I have that picture of you. You are truly a strong woman of God. Your heart amazes me and it encourages me. Your love for your family is beautiful. We are praying Ms. Kim. We are praying that through this entire process that the Lord would be glorified. Love you so much!
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