being family together

the past few days have been wonderful and extremely painful all at the same time. it has been great visiting with and loving on family. at times it has been painful, talking to my parents about things i needed to talk to them about. i have never liked conflict, but this was now or never. my heart was aching, but i know that it was the right thing to do. i guess as the oldest it was my responsibility, of course the rest of my family let me know i had been elected spokesperson. the talks went well and we are all good.

dad is really ok with all the outcomes after his surgery. #1 it was exactly what they thought, #2 it isn't as bad as they thought, #3 it is worse than they thought, #4 if he dies, he will wake up in heaven. never being on this side of things, i now realize that all the family goes through this painful process, not just the cancer patient. this really sucks. the surgery will be on monday, he will need to be there at 5 am, surgery a couple of hours later. today they went for the pre-op visit. tiffany- the nutritionist, sasha-the lawyer, and misty- the best note taker and a caretaker herself.



mom is scared. she has known dad since she was 14. dad seems stoic most of the time, after our talk, he was more aware of those around him, interacting with us more. mom broke down a little bit, but she really needs a good melt down. the rest of us are just trying to get through. get through till what and when will be a mystery until we are in the moment. i am scared too. i have never really seen my dad in this scenario. i feel blessed to still have my parents, and will enjoy, even in the heartache, every minute i have with him this week. continued prayers are needed.

thanks brook for the encouraging scripture

Philippians 4:4-8
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.