out of my box

there have been times in my life that i thought i couldn't go on another minute. then god would step in and give me  a kick in the ass and i would get up again. this season in my life is going to be different. i am all about becoming the woman he created me to be.  my health is good, i feel fabulous, i found a church i really like and i am moving out of the box. this time instead of waiting for things to happen to me, i am looking for things that i can make happen.
today i am in front of the tv crocheting like a mad woman. i have the opportunity to do one of my favorite things..making baby blankets. as i work on each one i pray for the child and the mother. pray for gods unending grace, healing and protection. these women are working on restoration from addictions, bad relationships, physical and mental abuse.they have looked for unconditional love all their lives and have finally come to jesus. praise god for the women who work with these women at their darkest hour.
i also have the privilege to help a dear friend (my daughters mother in law) with her daughters wedding. i have two crock pots going, the house smells like a mexican restaurant. this woman is one of the sweetest, most caring person i have ever met. she will bend over backwards to help anyone. she comes to clean my house every couple of months, just because she knows how hard it has been for me physically.
last, i am on a weight loss program. i need to lose weight in order to get a new knee. but more than that, i need to love me again, i need to feel comfortable in my own skin, to look in the mirror and not feel shame and embarrassment. ( blog on my progress @ another journey to a new normal) god and his healing power should never amaze me, because he can do all things, but it does. every day my feet hit the floor is a miracle. i am happy, i am content and i am becoming who i was meant to be.

i have been reading psalms this week and i keep going back to this verses  85:10-13

                    love and faithfulness meet together; righteousness and peace kiss each other.
                    faithfulness springs forth from the earth and righteousness looks down from heaven.
                    the lord will indeed give what is good and our land will yield its harvest.
                    righteousness goes before him and prepares the way for his steps.

so, here i go, jumping out of my box and into the real world!