joy has come in the morning!

 caroline!

just look at her! she is so full of life and joy you can feel it jump out of the picture! everyday she brings so much into my life! she is smart, funny, loving, kind, crazy at times and the best big sister abram could want! sometimes she will come downstairs just to tell me she loves me. she will always be my special little girl, given to me by god in an answer to a specific prayer. when told i had cancer, i didn't ask why me, please don't let me die, just a small prayer "please lord, let me see my grandchild". 3 years later i held her in my arms. i had a new reason to live a long life. she makes me want to do better, be better, love more and give more of myself.

abram!
he is a mini sasha! funny, sensitive, needs to know how things work and into everything! he hasn't quite got  "grandma" yet, i am called "maw"! he will stand at the top of the stairs calling my name and i have to go running up to see his smiling face. he is such a little man and oh how he loves his big sister. they play together (gently most times), chase each other around the house. he will give "cuddles" when he is in the mood! he loves to play the "tar" (guitar) on my bed while he watches "choo choo" on tv.  when i come home he runs to the top of the stairs calling my name with arms wide open and yelling loudly "maw"! (i am going to make sure he learns grandma!) my joy was doubled when he came along.

elliott

this kid goes ninety miles an hour! he has a bigger vocabulary than most 2 yr olds. when i go visit, he stands at the door with a big smile and calls out "grandma"! he gives hugs and kisses and loves to play "horsey". i chase him around the house and his laughter fills the air. he is such a happy boy, has more energy than caroline and at the same time can be affectionate with his stuffed puppy! he usually walks around with it chewing on its ear! his favorite name to call is "milo" his dog. milo is so gentle with him and protects him when he thinks elliott is in harms way! this little boy has stolen my heart, and i thought my joy was complete when he came along!

through out my life i have never dreamed of all the love my heart could hold. as i make room for another little girl making her appearance in june, the joy will grow greater and my heart will be fuller. i can't wait to hold this little girl in my arms and tell her how much i love her! she will have a big sister and brother that will love and protect her. she will have a grandma that will do anything for her. she may be my last grandchild, but she will be loved just like the others! 

my prayer was to see my first grandchild, god has now blessed me with four. today my heart is full of joy and happiness and enough love to last my lifetime! my joy has truly come in the morning after a life filled with depression, darkness, heaviness and burdens. i have four wonderful kids that parent these children, and  what an amazing job they are doing. when i feel this way and can't think it could get any better, then the lord seems to throw some more wonderful in my life! slow down folks, look around you at those who love you. those that hold a special place in your heart. put down the electronics and talk face to face. give lots of hugs and kisses, dance with each other, sing with each other and together praise the lord for each other!