missing family

i've been thinking about my sister often the past couple of weeks. she lives in california. except for sasha and misty, all my family lives out there. we can go for months without talking. the fact is, we talk in august (my birthday), christmas, and new years eve (her birthday). i miss not having a close relationship with her. we don't know each other at all. we share a past, from when we were kids, but do not share anything now. when we are together, it is like no time has past, we pick up where we left off. but it is only in the moment. no feelings, dreams, or opening up at all. i pray for her, her husband and her kids. i know they know who jesus is and think all is well, but they don't have any jesus experience. the kind you get walking in his presence everyday. i spent many years walking without him and know that this walk is so much more. i long for the relationship sisters usually have, talking often and confiding in one another. in the meantime, i will continue to miss my family awaiting my trip to california for her 50th birthday in december.