the children of my heart

this is the first real sunday i am home after i said goodbye to the basement. i didn't have to bake anything this morning, and i didn't have to hurry and get there early to make coffee. actually, i loved baking for everyone, and making coffee in anticipation of the morning to come. i read my bible this morning, listened to worship music, and prayed. i missed lily grace meeting me at the door with amazing energy saying "good morning, miss kim". i missed brittons smiling face talking about something he is excited about while i secretly pass him some extra change, and then ends the conversation with a thank you and a hug. i missed maggie coming down the stairs on her bottom. i missed the older girls chesney and claire giggling, cade giving caroline a smile, the dixon boys playing with cars, anna charlotte and delainey in their cute clothes, hadden and his flirty smile, madeline and her rolly polly arms. brady waking up at the end of service. i have been a part of all of these kids lives, most of them since they have been born. gifts from god to me. as i go in search for a new church family, i will take each of these kids with me deeply wrapped inside my heart. sadness abounds, pain comes in the night, but joy does come in the morning. this small season of my life, will soon end, and i will find a new home, for all things work together for my good.