precious time

i have been spending 4 afternoons a week with caroline for a couple of hours each day. i have been thinking of how much i look forward to each day. the little things she does, laughing, playing, singing, picking flowers, swinging and eating popsicles, and i get to do all of them with her. all she wants from me is time, and my attention. the sound of her laughter as she runs through the house is food for my soul. today i started thinking of the joy we have together, and how much i anxiously await her arrival each day. then i started thinking of how much time i spend with god. how he must wait anxiously for me to arrive to spend a little time with him. most of the time i am in a hurry and need to take care of something else. i spend time each morning in the bible and prayer time. a little time. not much, considering how many hours in the day. we talk on and off all day long, but no real dedication of time or attention to just him. ok, i just read that part and am feeling really guilty. i know better. just as i await for caroline to get here so we can have time together, he awaits for me to acknowledge him, give him attention, and my time. but he loves me in spite of myself. regardless of how much time i spend with him. but my desire is to please him, to worship him and to be in relationship with him....all the time. i need to find all the time, not just some of the time. time to work on this relationship again.

"hey god, got a minute? i need to talk"