so tired

i spent the day friday with a camera capsule floating through my intestines. real science fiction stuff, trying to find out why my body is anemic. saturday i spent asleep. today i needed to get a few things at the store. by the time i had made it to the check out i could hardly breathe or stand without leaning on the buggy. the rest of today i spent putting the groceries away and sleeping. i am so tired, tired of being tired and tired of all the testing. but mostly i am tired of not being able to be me. i don't know this person i have become. not feeling like baking cookies or working on a blanket is not me at all. tomorrow morning i will get up and go to work again. next weekend, i will sleep away again.

i am finishing up reading job. 42:2 says "i know that you can do all things, no plan of yours can be thwarted." so who am i to question what god has planned for me? i swallowed a camera didn't i!