a bit of humble pie

well, i sure stuck my foot in it and god made me get out again. after my last post, scripture, prayers and a big serving of humble pie, i realize that i really am exacty where he wants me to be. see, there was this dream...and these verses in ecclesiastes, you know the ones that say everything is meaningless... but most of all there was this overwhelming feeling that i had dishonored god. so, after forgiveness comes enlightenment. this is where i need to be right now in my life. this is where he wants me to be. so here is where i will be. here is where i will listen closer, and follow even closer right now in this moment. why do we always rely on ourselves for knowing what do?  question things we know are right? if you have any answers, please remind me again that he knows best.