through the eyes of a child

remember when we were young? when we thought grown ups were so smart? when we believed everything they told us? when faith in others was always there? then we grew older and we started to see that grown ups didn't know everything. that they had their doubts, that our grandparents were only people just like us? that the world was a place to be explored and questioned? remember when we thought we had all the answers, only to find out that we didn't know anything? when we had kids of our own? and really didn't know anything? that this perfect little human being was all your responsibility and nothing you did would matter more? and then..... all of a sudden they were grown and you were older, really older. they had kids of their own, and all of a sudden i am the grandparent....wow, how did that happen? really, how did that happen? my kids are having kids of their own. i am a grandma! how did i not know that this time in my life could be so great? so enlightening? so awesome? i have found out as i got older the less and less i knew. i found out that a little girl and all of her why's and what's could make me think i knew nothing at all. why is it raining grandma? why does it thunder and lightning grandma? why isn't it thunder and lightning grandma? why are there clouds in the sky grandma? why does the moon shine grandma? where do the stars come from grandma? why do the birds sing grandma? you get the hint, i know nothing! how did i get to be 53 yrs old and not know any of these answers? because they have never been important before. but to a 4 yr old they are valid questions. none of which i have the answers to. all i have is "i don't know sweetie". i am sure that someday she will know all the answers to all her questions. the only thing i know is that i love her, and that she knows that i love her and she will remain the world to me. someday she will learn that i really didn't know everything and neither did her parents. the only thing we all know for sure was that we love her dearly. and that love would continue until the end of time. so for you sweet, sweet girl, i love you and know that someday you will find out that, that is the only thing i knew for sure. it is up to you sweet caroline to find out the answers to the universe, and why grandma loves you so much! for only one has loved me like you have, only god in heaven!